MOTHER GOMMER

                                You just don’t know how deeply I’ve been hurt

                                             

Gommer a harlot in Israel who got married prophet Hosea.

The bible does not say how Gommer ended up in a life of a harlot maybe we don’t need to know that, but we know she was /had been deeply hurt and traumatized. Something happened to her that was not fair and wasn’t good but it happened anyway her circumstances led her to life of promiscuity Gomer like you was traumatized by something she didn’t want to happen but it did and now it is affecting every aspect of her life. the body can be traumatized or wounded so can your psyche which leads to insecurity, trauma hurts the heart which leads to sorrow sense of loss it fractures the mind cant think clearly confused, our lives move to the direction of our most dominate thoughts the more you concentrate on the devastating experience the more it will continue you eat you. Jah wants to heal a fractured mind so you must renew your thoughts

Trauma lowers self esteem it takes away their sense of emotional balance, traumatized women less of a person there is less understanding of her individuality no self dignity no  self worth no understanding of what makes her unique she becomes and feels more vulnerable, and easily adopts the  “I am a victim mentality.”No little girl says to herself I would like to be prostitute when I grow up or I‘d like to be a woman with emotional wounds or I’d like to be divorced 2 or 3 times, so I can feed my children.

Desperate people do desperate things and Gomer was a woman living in discouragement depression and desperation is care full what you judge we don’t know what makes women make the choice they do. You never fully forget. Healing is living beyond the hurt, a wound is an event but healing is process a scar disassociated us from the pain we once felt.

Grieving is vital to our coming to closure its apart of healing process, loss of a loved one rejection or death, loss of innocence/virginity loss of self identity or dignity any kind of loss needs to be grieved who can wipe a tear that won’t fall, Israel mourned Moses Jah knew we need to mourn but mourning has limitations Deut 34:8,Don’t grieve incompletely and come to acceptance for it allows you to say I am not a product of what happened to me I am what I do about it.

Gomer hadn’t drawn closure in her life not fully grieved or come to grips with her past so she can move into her future she locked but she hadn’t that’s why she went back. the illusion of having arrived Gomer as woman whose cleaned up respected as mother and wife of a prophet she had finally arrived, people who knew her 15yrs earlier wouldn’t recognize her no one who saw her would guess she was once a whore, she was caught between who Jah called her to be and who she used to be. One foot in her past, the other in her presence. her social status in the outside had changed but she hadn’t changed how she perceived herself on the inside, how do we know because the first crisis she had she went back t her old patterns, if you haven’t grieved properly and put a closure you run back to what is familiar self sabotaging destructive behavior continue hurting yourself.

Healing is a process just like baking steps and ingredients.

You must take personal responsibility of your behavior because some choices lead to bad consequences be honest with yourself. there is nothing that you have done that cannot be forgiven, guilt can hold you back is that causes women to think Jah can’t or won’t use her you must choose to receive Jah’s forgiveness choose to move forward and choose forgive yourself, bury what is dead .

Mother Gomer never accepted the truth that she was forgiven never accepted her new position in life she continued to live in shame; shame is what other people put on you.

They labeled her life by what she did they saw her life shameful but how did Jah see her Gomer means Beloved Jah saw her as beloved and that was her position with Jah beloved. You are also called by your name and not by your pain, don’t let other s define you but we cannot stop people from labeling us but you can stop the labels from sticking on you, people will always try to define you and label you no matter what you do we fall short when we live to people’s expectations people will limit you make you less than what JAH has destined for you, they will define you less spiritual less intelligent less effective less blessed than Jah want you to be

When she returned to harlotry Hosea could have said ‘this woman hurt me humiliated me failed me back slid from Jah’ could have left her  but he didn’t Hosea means salvation in the fullness of his identity he bought Beloved to be his own  that is unconditional love to see beyond the other weaknesses to accept with a loving heart. You must face your fears including your fear of love, receiving love requires letting go of past pains you must take risks of reaching out, no man is an island.

Women have dreams but don’t have strength to deliver that dream to birth it into reality, strength for what we do flows out of what we think or believe we are capable of doing we don’t attempt what we don’t think we can do.

You have been hurt disappointed humiliated but now it’s time to heal and be whole, Gomer a woman who has had it rough felt lowly about herself she saw no way out so she thought, a king came to restore her gave her hope but it was hard for her to fully except it because she only knew pain within, no one can ever change you no one can love you lest you love yourself, forgive yourself, 3 bury that which is dead.

You are wonderful in Jah’s eyes.IN THE EYES OF YOUR CREATOR