Mother Leah gen 29; 15-35
Leah 1 of the 2 dawtas of Laban uncle to
father Jacob, she was the first wife of Jacob whom he never loved because he
wanted to marry Rachel which he eventually did.
Leah had a low self esteem maybe she
couldn’t look any one in the eye to Jacob she was inferior in some way in personality
an attractiveness, she lived in the shadow of her stunningly beautiful sister,
Rachel was extremely beautiful and Jacob was in love with her and wanted to
marry her and worked 7 years for her. Leah second best maybe when Rachel was
born she began to with draw now all of a sudden her father takes her to be
Jacobs bride, can you imagine the conflicting emotions she felt.
Jacob was tricked, in ancient Israel as
custom had it, you never saw your wife till the next morning, he went to
confront Laban after he slept with her, Laban made him work 7 more years for
Rachel, Leah was deceived caught in the game she did not manufacture, she was a
victim and all she ever wanted was to be loved, admired and respected for who
she is. We all want to be loved by family friends spouse etc. when she woke up
she just wanted to be loved by her husband and all she got was an empty bed.
She was hurt felt used unwanted and
undesirable, she decided to win Jacobs love and affection, what extremes have
you gone to win someone’s favor parents boss friends etc.
So she took the first step to get his
attention and many woman have tried to get a man’s attention SEE
ME, every person desires attention and do what they think will make
them more excepted, you cannot be affectionate with someone who does not see
you, Leah then pursued the only means available to her….she had a baby, Jacob
may not have loved her but he was married to her it was her right in that
society for him to give her a chance to bear children, her first born Rueben means
look
at me she thought by giving him a son he will see her, might have had a
way of looking at her but not seeing her
didn’t notice if she gained weight or
lost it .
Something happens to a woman’s spirit when
she is totally ignored by a man she desires a loving relationship with her
psyche is messed up her heart crushed her self esteem shattered rejection can
create deep emotional wound, after awhile she thinks something is wrong with
her or she starts doubting herself. Hear me Leah tried the second time
Simeon was born. Crying out to have her opinions her feelings her desires
heard, know me she persisted
she was determined to get Jacob attention and affection had her third son Levi.
To be joined to or connected join with me connect with me Jacob. Having
children does not guarantee that your spouse will see you or be intimate with
you Leah finally faced up to that fact. she shifted gears I can’t get his
attention he won’t listen to me he won’t be one with me its time change
direction PRAISE JAH and Judah was born meaning let Jahovah be praised.
A life of praise, people of the tribe of
Judah became leaders of praise. Until you become like the tribe of Judah
Mother Leah birthed Judah and said now I
will praise Jah. Stop trying to so hard to impress others to be accepted, love
yourself for you are worthy you are fearfully (respectfully) and wonderfully
made, until we know and understand Jah love we cannot love another person.
ALL THINGS IN DIVINE TIME!!
love and light
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